Been a while since I've written, I would be surprised if anyone even checks out my blog anymore. It's been a really rough cycle on Clomid, I definately didn't know what my body was going to feel like each day when I woke up in the morning. I was mostly naseaus, which is the worse feeling of all. I can deal with the bloating and the enlarged ovaries. I can't deal with naseaus all that well especially when I'm working.
I tested yestarday at 12DPO and negative, today I woke up to AF. It's so unfair, it's unfair to me that a lot of us have to try so hard for what we want. I have one to two months before IVF.
I'm taking an unmedicated cycle before IVF this cycle. I need a chance to be happy and healthy before they hop me up on hormones. I'm sure my husband could use a break from me being whiny and hormonal. He's been such a blessing through all of this.
Anyways, I just have to keep telling myself that my time will come and that I have to move on and look foward to the next cycle. It's really hard to be positive, but Adam usually snaps me out of negative phases where I feel like crying all day about it.
Here's to next cycle.........even if it is unmedicated.

Haven't blogged in a while

I had to get this out tonight though. Our beloved cat of 5 years died today. We had to put him down due to heart failure. It was the second hardest thing we have ever had to do next to burying my grandparents. I think that God takes the good ones early. He knows that they are too good for this earth. It's so sad to think that we will never come home to his meow again, never fall asleep next to his purring, and will never see his shiny, orange coat again. We loved him more than life itself. He hung on as long as he could for us, trying to be strong, but there was only so much he and we could do. They say a loss of a pet is hard, but we didn't know it was going to be this difficult. This has been a day full of crying, praying and sorrow. MacGyver changed our lives dramatically, he helped us through difficult times and made us laugh until our faces hurt. There are no words to describe what this cat meant to us. Our "little man" is in heaven looking down on us, making sure to keep us safe. We'll post some pics when I'm on our other computer.