Monday, November 26, 2007


That number is my progesterone level WITH meds. I ovulated a little. I apparently have not been ovulating off meds for the past 5 months.... wish the RE had cared enough to do extensive testing on me to see if I HAD been ovulating, so that I wouldn't have the heartache adam and I do right now for coming off lupron. Lupron, the drug that had been suppressing my endo up until I went off it 8 months ago, then had testing done and everything was AOK. They told me that I didn't need a p4 test seeing as though I had my period and it's "very rare" that you get your period and aren't ovulating. Guess the fertility specialist and her useless nurse have no idea what they are talking about.
I called the RE today and never got an answer back....why does that not surprise me. They always act so put out every time I call. Hopefully my ob/gyn will call back and tell me what he thinks I should do next cycle.
I just want to be pregnant.... I never thought it would be this hard.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Been a while since I've written, I would be surprised if anyone even checks out my blog anymore. It's been a really rough cycle on Clomid, I definately didn't know what my body was going to feel like each day when I woke up in the morning. I was mostly naseaus, which is the worse feeling of all. I can deal with the bloating and the enlarged ovaries. I can't deal with naseaus all that well especially when I'm working.
I tested yestarday at 12DPO and negative, today I woke up to AF. It's so unfair, it's unfair to me that a lot of us have to try so hard for what we want. I have one to two months before IVF.
I'm taking an unmedicated cycle before IVF this cycle. I need a chance to be happy and healthy before they hop me up on hormones. I'm sure my husband could use a break from me being whiny and hormonal. He's been such a blessing through all of this.
Anyways, I just have to keep telling myself that my time will come and that I have to move on and look foward to the next cycle. It's really hard to be positive, but Adam usually snaps me out of negative phases where I feel like crying all day about it.
Here's to next cycle.........even if it is unmedicated.