Monday, May 11, 2009

A very bad week

As everyone who reads my blog knows, Adam and I have been trying to conceive again. Well, we were lucky enough to get pregnant on the first try. Something I never thought in my wildest dreams would happen. We found out on April 2nd and didn't want to tell everyone until we were out of the woods.
Looking, back, it was stupid that I didn't post it on this blog. After all, that's what this blog is about. Fertility.
Last week we went to what was supposed to be my 8 week u/s and there was no longer a heartbeat. We are devastated. This is something that happens to everyone else, not us. So I am currently waiting to miscarry by choice. I could get a D&C, but there are two reasons I'm not going to do that right now. There is about a .05% chance that the baby is viable. Although not a very good chance, I don't want to think about the what ifs. We have a follow up u/s tomorrow and if the baby hasn't grown, I will think about a D&C. The other reason I am not going that route right now is to have some kind of closure.
I will update soon.

4 comments:

allisyn said...

i'm praying for you guys :)

My Endo Journey said...

God Bless you guys! What a devastating feeling for sure. Sending prayers your way!

Ava said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I'm thinking of you.

Melissa Ralston said...

I don't even think the title of "a very bad week" fits the situation. I'm also so sorry for what you are going through, any loss is devastating even when it happens early on. Don't lose hope in fulfilling your dreams.