Updates on Ella!

Ella is now a little over 7 months old and SO much fun! She's sitting up very well for long periods of time and learning how to play with "sit up" toys now.
She's been babbling to herself for the last couple of weeks and it's so funny to hear her. Ella has become very alert and turns around to the sound of pretty much anyone's voice. She's very interested in busy situations, taking it all in, enjoying company. She HATES being bored, like her Mommy.

I never gave her 6 month "well appointment" stats, so here they are. She's about 50th percentile, maybe a little small at 26 inches and 15.8 pounds. She's in 6 month clothes, so I've begrudgingly packed all her 3 month clothes away.

Here she is in her horsey!


Bouncy Time! from Adam Nielsen on Vimeo.

AND other pictures!

Pain through ovulation

I should've known that my first cycle ovulating would be painful. I was in bed all day and couldn't get up because the pain was running up one side of my body and down the other on Friday. This was on day 19, which is very late, so I'm not sure what this means. I really think a cyst popped at the same time because that's what it felt like. I'm positive I at least ovulated this cycle after taking many OPK's to find out. Any late ovulaters out there?

Daddy's Photos

On the weekends Daddy and Ella have "Baby and Daddy time". Adam takes so many pictures of her. He is so artsy and takes the most pristine pictures of Ella and then sends them to me at work so that I don't miss her too much! That's why I love him:)

Back on the wagon

Well, if you read my blog enough, you know that we are "back on the wagon", or trying again.

And I'm petrified. It seems as if I want it more this time than last time. Part of me thinks it's because I know what I'd be missing out on if I didn't get to experience this again. The other part of me doesn't want to think it's because of that; it's unfair to those who haven't even had one child because of infertility. So many feelings going on inside my head. I have guilt for feeling this way at all, empathy for those who struggle to become pregnant.
I'm upset because part of me feels like I should be happy enough with having Ella who I love and cherish. Is this greed or is this something infertility causes in the first place? No one should have to feel guilty for wanting more children, but I do.
Adam and I have struggled far less than a lot of infertile couples, but it plays such a huge role in our lives. I feel myself getting back into that thought process of "when do I ovulate?", "when's a good time to do "BD"", "I'm dreading having my period because I know it means it didn't work again", "do I go on clomid or wait it out". It's like my life revolves around infertility.
I just thought I would share. I'm sorry if it upsets some people who read my blog and are currently trying for their first. My words are not meant to downplay any current or past struggles others have had. Nobody should have to deal with this situation.

I have hair!!!!

Look at my pigtails everyone!

Auntie KyKy

So Ella has the best aunties in the world and Kylee Morgan is one of them. She is my youngest sister and SO thoughtful. She made this collage of pictures and it looks so cool!

Adventures in weaning

Let me start by saying weaning is not fun. Neither Ella nor I were mentally or physically ready for us to wean from the breast, but Ella will thank me someday when she has a little brother or sister.
The doctor told us weaning was our best option since there is only about a 1-2% chance that you can get pregnant while avidly breastfeeding, and yes, we are trying again. Although it breaks my heart to stop breastfeeding, we would like to complete our family.
Weaning hurts. When you exclusively breastfeed for 6 months, you build up a supply such that your boobs swell with milk if you don't use the supply. I'm suffering with clogged ducts, lumps and aches. Along with that comes the mental anguish because I have that great bond with Ella from feeding her, giving her a bottle is getting a little easier but still makes me sad.
I will be happy once we get pregnant. We will try for 6 months then do IVF if needed (hopefully not). Wish us luck!

Giggling with Daddy!

Today I had to work, but not to worry, Daddy to the rescue. And that he is! He is so wonderful with Ella, I never ever worry about Ella when she is with Daddy! Here is a video of them having fun together.

Giggling with daddy! from Adam Nielsen on Vimeo.

Ella is THE rockstar!!

We hope that Ella will like music as much as we enjoy it!!

Rockstar! from Adam Nielsen on Vimeo.

First tu tu

I can't wait for Ella to take ballet lessons one day. For now, she can just play the part.

Some pictures!

It's"Yellow Shirt Day" to raise awareness for endometriosis!

Here are Ella and I in our yellow shirts:)

National Wear Yellow Shirt Day

Tomorrow March 2nd, is "National Yellow Shirt Day", in hopes that people will wear yellow to raise awareness about Endometriosis and the affect it has on so many people. I hope everyone who reads my blog will find a yellow shirt to wear!

Gotta get these shots in

Isn't she precious!!!