It's been two days since my lap.

I felt pretty good when I got up yesterday. I was very surprised (happily surprised), but I should've knocked on wood because the misery started last night. My stomach feels like it's going to pop at any minute because I'm so bloated and the gas in my shoulder hurts like someone is going to rip my arm off any minute. To top it off, I'm getting sick with a sore throat and so is Adam.
Dr. G told my Mom and Adam that everything looked ok (he was impressed at what being pregnant with Ella did to my uterus), but that he took a cyst off my right ovary and separated some endo from various parts of my body and my right ovary, so that's probably where the pain was originating from.
I can feel where the doctor burned inside especially if I hit that part of my body up against something. OUCH!
Ella has been so good, it's almost as if she knows that she needs to be good for mumma right now. It does help that she is taking more regular naps now. She slept last night from 10-1, 1:15-4 then 4:30-9, so that wasn't too bad.
Hopefully things are looking up when I post next.

A photo shoot day

Not about Endo or Ella

I had to type this out;) I was watching a "True Hollywood story" for Rachel Ray. I'm not a die hard fan, there is just nothing else on at noon and Ella was napping, so I took advantage of my time. But there was a snippet at the end of the special that showed an "anti-Rachel Ray" snoot on film. They gave her a whole 5 minutes to talk abut herself and her website and about how much she hates Rachel Ray. Her website is called "Rachel Ray Sucks". Now call me crazy, but if you have nothing better to do than develop a website (that undoubtedly gets boring and monotonous) about how you hate Rachel Ray, then you are a jealous person and you need to get a life. I encourage everyone to tell this woman this. Her website is "Jealous Girl". Feel free to flame the lady. She is quite obsessive.

Lap Scheduled For Wednesday the 28th

At noon. Hopefully I can find some relief in this surgery. I keep on having these thoughts that the Dr. is going to say that I need to have everything taken out because it's just so bad in there. That would be a nightmare. Best case scenario is that he finds what has been causing me so much pain and takes it from me, leaving all the necessities in. We'll see.

Aren't I pretty

In my new sweater "Gamma" and Grampy got me?

To sum up last weekend

I spent about 5 hours in the ER for pain. Of course all they did was give my vicodin and send me on my way. The ER doctor, though nice, thought I should quit breastfeeding and be on pain killers full time. Ha! Well at least one person believes that my pain is real!

Not gonna do that though, not in a million years.

It's horsey time!

Ride em'cowboy in my new Jumperoo!!

About yesterdays post

Long story short, I went to my OB to have an ultrasound done. There was nothing there, zilch. They have no idea where my pain is coming from. So they have no way of fixing it. The ultra sound tech told me I should get a CT. Great.
She saw a small cyst on my right ovary indicating ovulation. Ovulation through breastfeeding and birth control. Something I am not supposed to be doing. It's very very frustrating knowing that you are doing the most you can do and more and your body is taking over enough to put you in this much pain.
Next post will be pictures of Ella, I promise.

There are days I just cannot deal with this disease

and this is one of them.

Calling the doctor for pain

I hate doing this. I hate having to call my ob/gyn just to tell him I'm in pain. Not much he can do. I told him that I had been bleeding intermittently through my mini-pill (micronor). I'm also doubling over in pain almost everyday because of my right ovary. I think my cyst is back. I have an ultrasound scheduled for Thursday morning. Part of me wants something to be there so they can remove it and the pain will lessen. If there is nothing there, there is nothing to get rid of. Then Adam and I will probably talk about other options for me and us. For now I'm on the Depo-Provera pill form? I had never heard of it, apparently its just a higher level progesterone pill so that I don't bleed as often.
It's getting so that I can't pick the baby up and bring her upstairs sometimes. Very scary for me. I don't want to know that this pain is getting the better of me. I don't want to let it. I don't want endo to control my life, I want to control it.
Will update when I get back from my ultra sound on Thursday. Hopefully I will know a little more then.

A visit with Austin

Dear Austin,

You are my first friend! We will have a lot of good times together.

Love,

Ella

Bath Time!

Ella loves bath time:)




But HATES getting out;)

A Video To Start The Year Off